My Testimony (Baptism Of A Skeptic)

This was first published as a guest post on The recovering legalist, and I wanted to share it here also.

Source: My Testimony (by David Fuller)

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Are You Kidding Me?

The Veritas guy found this U.S. patent for a device that can create and or stop a hurricane.

Abstract: A method is disclosed for affecting the formation and/or direction of a low atmospheric weather system. Audio generators are positioned to project sound waves toward a peripheral area of a weather system. The sound waves are generated at a frequency to affect the formation of the weather system in a manner to disrupt, enhance or direct the formation. The sound waves can also be projected in a manner to cause the system to produce rain.

Doesn’t matter. God Himself said when people work together, nothing is impossible for them. (See the Tower of Babel account.) So yeah, it’s plausible. But Jesus also said all power in heaven and earth are His. That means any power anyone exercises is on loan to them, so to speak, including your power to take your next breath. That’s why every sin is a transgression against God, and why Jesus forgave people’s sins against others, that seemingly had nothing to do with him. If they’ve learned how to manipulate storms, they will be held accountable for how they use that power. The wicked are caught in their own nets, and He catches the wise in their own craftiness.

Will The Real Truth Please Stand Up

I do a lot of thinking. Too much, sometimes. Over the past year or so, many things have proven to be true that I would have previously laughed at the suggestion of, and did. I laughed at some who claimed the govt could spy on us through the tv, but that turned out to be true. I scorned the idea that the govt of my beloved country, among others, was being influenced or controlled from behind the scenes by elitists with nefarious purposes, but that seems more evident by the day. I certainly wouldn’t have imagined the mass abandonment of reason and rationality which seems to be taking place in our society. As a result, I’ve taken a second look at some of the other seemingly crazy claims and theories that are going around, and there are many. It seems increasingly difficult to be sure of what I think I know, even information I thought I had thoroughly vetted and established in my own mind.

In spite of my lifetime of learning, and my encounters with God and the things He has taught me, I still sometimes find my mind struggling with questions like, does the Bible mean what I think it means? Why is the Vatican promoting a world govt, and looking for alien life, and designing and referring to a religion that includes them, even saying that Jesus Himself might be an alien? There’s so many weird ideas out there, and that’s besides terrorists and crazy dictators with nukes, and let’s not even talk about the weather or a volcano in Yellowstone! Then of course there’s unemployment and other personal difficulties.

How do I cope? Knowledge buffers me for a while, but it can only withstand so long against the invading armies of “yeah, but…”, especially knowing that knowledge is so easily manipulated by people, or even my own mind if I’m not careful, and our senses can be so easily deceived by the ways technology can fake reality, and when I’ve come to the limits of my intellectual defenses, I feel like I’m flailing in the winds of confusion and uncertainty, which leads to fear and apprehension.

I’m ashamed that my natural tendency in these times is to cry out to God for assurance and comfort, and wonder why He doesn’t seem to answer, while I put off and patronize the still small voice that urges me to pick up my Bible and read. Instead, I entertain thoughts like, What’s that going to solve?; I know what it says, why read it again?; or I’ve got too much to do. But I eventually always do, and in the foolish pages of an old book who’s debunking and eradication has been attempted by kings, philosophers, scholars, armies, nations, and competing ideologies of all sorts for centuries, and continues today, I never fail to find God.

It has never mattered which version I’m reading. When I can’t seem to find God, or hear Him, I find Him when I look in the Book. “Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you.” How many times must I learn this? I go to His Word, and He comes to me, and speaks to me, and makes Himself known to me in amazing and wonderful ways. He gives me comfort and assurance, and peace that truly is beyond knowledge or understanding. I don’t need all the answers, just to feel His presence, and hear His kind, gentle Voice, and know that He, at least, is real and true and completely trustworthy, and that ALL things are in His powerful hand, whether aliens, or angels, or elitists, or shadow governments, or mad dictators, or deluded masses, or even the weather and volcanoes.

They’re all His, and so am I.

 

For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers,neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.  Romans 8:38

New International Version (NIV)Holy Bible, New International Version®, NIV® Copyright ©1973, 1978, 1984, 2011 by Biblica, Inc.® Used by permission. All rights reserved worldwide.

180 Degrees

The whispers of the Age, I hear

Calling sweetly to my ear

And once again, I’m coming back to you

 

I hear the promises they make

I see the hearts they love to break

And here I come, I’m running back to you

 

I try to keep an open mind

And leave these tired words behind

But only find a burning thirst for you

 

I’m lured away by something new

And realize my heart’s with you

So here I am, I’m turning back to you

 

It’s you that I love

It’s you that I need

It’s your crimson gift

I kneel to receive

It’s your Spirit giving me

Power to believe

And it’s your love that sees me through

To love you is all I can do

 

 

© 2017 David Robert Fuller

Criminal Controversy

In my senior year of high school, some friends and I decided to put together a pep band for the school pep rally and homecoming game. The lineup was: a guy that played keyboards, (and was the only one who could actually play); a guy with a drum set; me playing the notes the keyboardist showed me on the bass; and my girlfriend pretending to play an electric guitar because it looked cool (it wasn’t turned up).

For a few weeks prior, we were allowed to practice during study hall. It was a small school, and the sound traveled, and we had some issues with students getting bathroom passes to listen to us practice.

We were excited, the whole school, because this was a Baptist school, and being allowed to have a band, with drums, was kind of a big deal. Even if it was just a simple keyboard melody doubled by a bass guitar, with a drumbeat and a silent guitar.

The day of the rally, we were informed that the band would not be allowed after all. The reason?

“WE WERE TOO CONTROVERSIAL” Yes, that’s actually what they said.

I thought that was ridiculous on the part of a small, Baptist high school nobody knows about. Now, I’m incredulous, because this exact same ridiculous type of reasoning is being adopted by Google, Facebook, YouTube, and others and applied in increasing attempts to censor, guess what?, “CONTROVERSIAL SPEECH”, which is also labeled “hate speech”.

What? Since when did controversial become a crime? Or hateful? One of my favorite things about being an American has always been the freedom of controversy. Our nation was born out of controversy. And when did it become a crime to say or do something, just because someone else doesn’t happen to like it? And how is it that the liberal left is now using the same ridiculous reasoning (motivated by the same fear) as the teachers at my Baptist high school?

The Hope Of Glory

What’s ahead
Beyond my fears
Beyond the shedding
Of my tears
The hope of glory
Shining bright
In my heart
A candle light
A flame of Love
Eternally
Melts my heart
Changes me
The strongest faith
The slightest doubt
The victory
He’s holding out
Can I ever
Be released
Son of Love
The sweetest peace

 

 

©  2017 David R. Fuller

 

Just Sayin

​I don’t want to read about praying. I want to talk to God.

I don’t want to read about seeking Him. I want to know Him.

I don’t want to read about how to know God’s will. I want to know God’s will because I know God.

I don’t want to take your word for it. I would like to ask God myself. The Bible says I can. And it contains a crowd of witnesses who say He will answer.

I don’t want you to take my word for it. See for yourself. You don’t have to go anywhere or do anything. God is wherever you are, and He has all the time in the world.

I don’t want to read about what it means to know Jesus. I want to learn what it means to know Jesus.

I don’t want to ask, “What do I think Jesus would do?”. I want to ask Jesus what to do.

Incidentally, His answer frequently differs from mine.

I don’t want a religion with you. I want a relationship with Him.

And, hopefully, with you as well.

I don’t want to wonder if He’s real, any more than I wonder if you are.

I don’t want to be left in the dark. I want to see clearly.

I don’t want to be loyal because I fear punishment. I want to be loyal because I love.

I don’t want to worship. I want to adore.

I want The Rapture to happen to my heart right now.

I want to love so much, to love any more would tear me apart at the seams, but that wouldn’t stop me.

I don’t want to be filled with the Spirit. I want God to flow through me like a fountain, and get everyone else wet. Sometimes people get upset when that happens.